*Prayer*

*Such a prayer offered in FAITH will heal the sick, and the Lord will make you well. And, if you have committed any sins, you will be forgiven.* ~James 5:15

*It is so hard to step out on faith. But, I feel like I'm doing really well with it. (for now) Every day I try to give Zach to God...even though I just want to be selfish and try to do things on my own...but I know that's not the way. It's very impressive to see how GOD works though...

On Thursday we went into the doctors and we had an ultra-sound done, and the outcome was so amazing and encouraging!!!! We went from 0 fluid, to 2 cm of fluid, to 5 cm in 2 weeks. God is sooooo good....I am just continuously amazed by his faithfulness and love!

*There's a silver lining*

"I am thine, O Lord Iave

heard Thy voice,

And it told Thy love to me;

But I long to rise in the arms

of faith,

And be closer drawn to Thee.

Draw me nearer, nearer,

blessed Lord,

To the cross where Thou

hast died;

Draw me nearer, nearer,

nearer, blessed Lord,

To Thy precious, bleeding side.

O, the pure delight of a

single hour

That before Thy throne I spend,

When I kneel in prayer, and

with Thee, my God.

I commune as friend

with friend!"

I dont even know

"When troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing NOTHING."
~James 1:1-4

*I'm not really sure how to feel about this passage....I'm thinking that it should somehow comfort me...but at the same time it confuses me. Because everyone knows that when you are faced with trials and tribulations the last thing you wanna do is rejoice! But, then I think that with God every day should be full of joy. Every day, I beleive, has to be a consious choice to be happy and thank God for another day. I NEED to thank God every day that I have with Zachary, every day that I feel him move, every time I see him on the ultra-sound screen. And, the hardest thing of all is knowing that this whole thing is so far out of my hands! There is NOTHING I can do...other than love this little baby and continue to have FAITH that God has this whole thing in His hands. I am learning that I need to sit back and let God take control....it's just hard not to grab the wheel every once in a while.*